One year ago, I wrote a post titled, "One Year From Today". I reread it when preparing for this January 2020 post and I cried. First of all, of course I did. It's just part of who I am. Secondly, knowing now what I didn't know then...gosh, it is a bit crazy. 2019 hardened me in some ways and made me more fragile in others. It made me more skeptical, yet also more accepting. It brought me to some very low lows, but balanced them out with some very high highs.
It was a rollercoaster.
Last year, I gave myself five questions to reflect on and after reading them again, I'm going to "re-use" them for 2020.
- Did I care for my loved ones & myself well?
- A true sense of self--beyond my faith & family, what am I truly passionate about?
- How did I pursue what I am passionate about to positively impact the lives of others?
- What did I do that was uncomfortable, yet important in me being the person God has created me to be?
- In a social media-drenched world of opinions & voices, was my voice encouraging or hurtful? Was it life-giving or draining?
I don't view these as goals or resolutions and some of them weren't really addressed. The toughest (and most important) lesson I learned last year was the undeniable connection between your mental well-being and physical well-being and simply stating, "This year I will workout more" or "This year I will eat healthier" or "This year I will be less stressed" would be setting me up for failure. (And sometimes that "mind-body" connection is unexpected! I found out I had some major vitamin deficiencies and hormone imbalances that were contributing to my anxiety levels. ) Did I end my year working out more, eating healthier, and being less stressed? Yes, with professional help and yes, it was hard and yes, it was worth it. There are so many moments I can point to, and some I'm sure I didn't notice, where I can say, "That was God." I'm not a big believer in coincidence and this is a much longer story than I'll share here, but it's the first time in awhile that I'm excited about pursuing the year ahead knowing that with God, I am stronger than the storm.
Last year's post ended with this quote from dear old Christopher Robin and I'm going to end this post with it, too. It certainly rang true for 2019 and maybe someone else needs to hear this as 2020 begins.
“You are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think."
Until next time.